NaNoWriMo novel: an excerpt

The desert sand is warm and comforting on the soles of my feet. The small rocks that usually cut and bruise bare skin are barely noticeable as I run past the cacti and thistle. I have to be somewhere. Someone is looking for me. I'm dressed in a night dress of pure white. The fabric is thin against my skin letting in the chill of the night air and rising moon. I have the urge to lay against the canyon rocks to let the sun's heat that they hold push away the chill that is creeping up my skin. The pressing cold and darkness is falling fast, spreading from the east horizon over the landscape and finding its way to me. I am suddenly aware of my body beneath the fabric. The curves of my form are too noticeable. I feel naked and alone. I am not alone. There is someone else out there in the night. I see movement among the still cacti that dot the barely lighted western horizon. They rise like blackened hands reaching towards the sky and are met with the massive, sparkling blanket of stars. The beauty of it startles my breath and I feel a tear fall down my cheek. Dreams are always filled with a stronger sense of beauty than real life. There are no worries or obligations, no rituals of the day that must be completed. No rules. No black. No white. The sound of my tear hitting the sand draws my attention downward. Time has ceased to exist. Two steps in front of me. A left foot, then a right. The boots blowing a dusting of sand into the air. The particles swiring on the wind and getting carried away. I raise my face to meet his eyes. It takes a slow deliberation to bring my gaze to his. Even in the complete darkness that now engulfs us I can see a fire in his eyes. I feel warmth blush in my cheeks. The feeling emenates down my body, tingling my naked skin. I tell myself that it's only a dream. I can do whatever I want. Running away seems like a viable option but so does stepping closer. One step, then two. The feel of the dirt between my toes is shockingly real, but the manner of our locked gaze is nothing of the known world. As the distance between us lessens the sky draws inward, the ground slopes up to cradle us. The world tightens and holds it's breath. An eternity passes between us and I fear that I will wake and never see him again. I will myself deeper in sleep, consciously thankful that the day exhausted me so completely. I'm here. My words sound breathy and distant as they pass my lips. It's as if I am watching him through my own eyes and simultaneously watching our meeting from above. I seem small beneath his gaze, a frail creature that needs his guidance and warmth. He reaches a hand towards me, palm up, slowly. The way one would reach toward a wild horse when unsure of their temperament. His knuckles slowly skim down the buttons of my nightdress and stop just below my ribs. My heart is racing and I exhale, not realizing that I had stopped breathing the moment his hand had left his side. His palm turns and presses warm against me. There is an object between us. A metal, warmed by it's close presence to my skin. He clutches it tightly, stumbling me forward. A cord pulls at the back of my neck, willing me closer to him. His eyes hold me still and keep me from losing my balance. I desperately want to reach my hands out to steady myself. Not from the tug of gravity but from the weakness that seems to have taken over my legs. Somehow I know that if I dare to touch him he will disappear and be left in the dream while I will be taken awake. With his hand still clutching the charm at my chest, his other hand caresses my hair with a gentleness I never imagined a man capable of. I am no longer grounded to any type of reality. I give myself over to the dream for better or worse. I can't speak or breathe. His hand tightens against the back of my neck and he pulls me forward, tilting my head up as he leans down to keep our eyes locked while the warmth of our individual bodies encircle eachother and become one light in the darkness. I see the vapor of his breath so close to my face and my body feels weightless, yet my heartbeat heavy and fast. His lips meet mine with an unexpected fierceness. All at once time catches up, our lips part and he slips the cord over my head. He mouths one word. Sorry. I startle awake with one single image burned in my mind. A key, shinning and silver with spots tarnished from age. It was the object of his desire, not me.

NaNoWriMo update: WINNER!

I did it! I wrote over 50,000 words towards my first novel. I feel amazingly accomplished but I am not done. This month of intense writing and chore-ignoring has taught me that I can do this. I can write everyday. Even if its just a few sentences or 2000 words on a weekend morning. I can put my daydreams to paper and create worlds. I can tell stories that excite me. I can and I will! My goal now is to finish the story that I set out to tell and keep writing. I have a prompt to finish for a writing group, a short story for a local contest and a new novel idea (check out my pinterest board, Rusalka, if you are curious). Best of all, I have a new dream. NaNo has taught me that I can do the unimaginable if I just try.

NaNoWriMo update: 2.5 weeks

This is my favorite place to write. The back room of my Coop grocery store at the corner table. The coffee is great (free refills) and the room is quiet. So far, I manage to get a lot of writing done on the weekend mornings in this particular spot. I rise with the sun and eat a ham and cheese croissant while my computer wakes up. My word count stands at 37,363! That would mean I have also eaten six of those croissants and had way too much coffee. 

nails of the week: dark n sparkly

I had some time to paint my nails this week since I am surpassing my NaNoWriMo word count goals. I chose this dark green and confetti sparkles. I hope you like it.


5 years ago I married my best friend on a crisp fall evening in Wilmington, North Carolina. We have grown in more ways then we ever imagined since then. I am proud of the man and father that he has become. I am thankful everyday for his patience and understanding. He lives with three crazy ladies (dog included) and takes good care of us all. I love you, Byron.

NaNoWriMo update: week 1

My first week as a NaNoWriMo participant has gone swimmingly. I just logged my 17,558th word to my growing manuscript. I love writing every day and taking time to myself to be creative. It feels fantastic and refreshing. Here is a list of 11 things that I have learned in the past week.

1      Libraries are magical places
2      Coffee is a fuel
3      It's hard to name a horse
4      A buzzing fly is the antithesis to productivity
5      I should expect more of myself (like 2000 words per day)
6      Byron makes a mean pot roast
7      To be a writer, one just has to write
8      I am a writer
10    People (even strangers on twitter) are more supportive that I ever imagined
11    I can actually do this

bumper crop of fun

We love the State Fair. Every year we go and get the same foods in the same order, attend some goat judging, and never ride the rides. This year we had Alice and my parents with us. We had more fun than ever. 

We begin every year with some roasted corn and end with apple cider and kettle corn. In between we eat corn dogs, something deep fried, a caramel apple, something on a stick and sample the maple cotton candy. So. Good. I love the area with the games and rides, but on such a full stomach I am content to walk and not ride. 

My mom just had to try the deep fried Milky Way. It was melty, rich and delicious. 

Alice fell asleep to the sound a bluegrass band while we finished off the kettle corn. 

NaNoWriMo update: day 3

I spent two hours this morning with my computer, a pumpkin spice latte and my characters. All is well and I am sitting pretty at 7,156 words! Eek!

handmade parade

We attended our first ever Handmade Parade. It was a spectacular sight. All of the creatures of the Eno river ventured to downtown Hillsborough. I loved all of the giant head masks, they had such a Wes Anderson look to them. It really was an incredible afternoon. I am so proud to live in such an artsy and creative corner of the triangle. 

NaNoWriMo update: day 1

Word count: 1769
I can't believe how well today went. I was able to get plenty of writing done, start laundry, feed Alice, cook dinner, watch a scary movie (Trick r Treat), talk with Byron, play with Alice, text my BFF, and post to my blog--before 9:30! Crazy!